Lately I have been catching myself staring off in the distance, thinking of nothing in particular. Star gazed, amazed by the most simplest gleam that happens to catch my eye at that moment.Usually I since something form the corn in my eye, which makes me smile. Why all the sudden do I seem to take a step back from reality and see things in a complete different light? Is it just my imagination wondering off, to weird and fascinating places, where things seem simpler then they appear? Who knows, would we ever really know? I doubt it!
Yesterday, or lets say last night; around 3:30AM I stepped outside to smoke. As I usually do I look at all the bugs that congregate around the night lamp outside the door. I always discover a weird looking bug that I never have laid my eyes on before. Coming up with weird ideas why that it might have the patters of colors, or if its a different type of spider. Even though, I am afraid of spiders I try my best not to kill them if they are not running across my floor. I feel horrible when I kill a living creature. I tell myself; they are scared and helpless, what right do I have to take their life away? As I stood their just looking at the bugs, smoking my cigarette. I had this over whelming since of oneness with everything. As I stared off in the darkness of the night, my skin tingled and I felt as if everything around me was alive. I stared at the tree leaves and trunk as the light reflected off it; giving me a since or amazement. Knowing its living, breathing, and it had a purpose just as I do. These small moments with in my life, give me the reinsurance that there is definitely something much more to this universe then we know. If everyone actually took the time and patience to listen to the bugs chirping, silence sing, and the wind blow. We will feel the oneness that we are suppose to feel.
Why do I not have these great moments of awareness at all times? Is it because I sense things differently depending of my environment? Who knows... I wish to walk around with this awareness of how everything is intertwined with each other. We were never really meant to wonder around this planet destroying everything that we touch. Just because we are human doesn't give us a right over everything else. Why do we do this??? WHY? Only if you people understood the great pain the stamps its self on my heart, every time I come to realize the brutality of what we are capable of.
The other day, a king snake was crossing the road. I know that it might have been an accident, which in most cases people do not pay attention to where they are going. The snake was already dying, but I stopped my car, frozen on what to do. I drove around it! I knew I could not help it, and I wish I would have gotten there before it was killed, maybe then it would have had a chance. People say, " why was it crossing the road in the first place, what a stupid snake." I wanna scream, " The snake has every right to cross this road, this road wasn't here when nature made the snake, you made the road, RESPECT nature!" Nature never attended for the Human aspect (Not caring), we need to start listening and understand that they are not in our WAY, we are in their WAY. They have more of a right to be here then we do. We are a plague to this planet and I will be waiting for something to come along and treat us like we treat everything on this earth.
Have you ever really consider what I was saying? Do you ever care? Maybe if you took the time and looked and watched how in one simple life form you could understand the universe.
I just wish; that I could stay connected, I wish I could make people understand how I feel, and I wish there were more people that would stand up and actually do something about it.
I will shut up now...
Danielle
