Obsession with zombies!

I have noticed that this society has this obsession with the undead. Its like that society is afraid of death (the unknown) that they have to come up with some sort of alternative. Silly if you really consider it. I am guilty of being an fan of Walking dead, fear of the dead, and Z nation. Also I have read several zombie books. One of the recent movies that came out was pride and prejudice and zombies. I read the book when it first came out and enjoyed it very much. It was interesting because the book Pride and prejudice has been one of my favorite books to rend. I was kinda of worried about the movie not being that good, because 90 percent of the time. The book is always better.... well lady and gentlemen. I really liked the book and know I will probably enjoy the take on zombies in the movie. There were many times while reading Pride and prejudice that I laughed so hard. I know this movie will be very funny as well... I would actually recommend this series to anyone that enjoyed this type of read. Also recommend the movie!!!  

Early morning!!!!

Yeah!!! It is normal for me to still be up at 5:25am but, this is normally because I am doing something amazing. I am usually doing resarch or enjoying an good movie. I am watching the messagers because I literly do not have aything else better to do. I was going to start on my book but everytime I put my figures to the keyboard. My mind goes blank....

I should actually be cleaning my room but I am actually annoyed about it all. My room is super sall and I need more room. I keep trying to finds ways to convert my small space into something more useful. My mom wont let me do much with the room and I dont have plans on living here forever.

I thought I was gonna be let go from my current job but, it seems I will be working next weekend. YAY ME!

Should I write?

Ive had this idea for a book since I was young. Ive written several short versions of it but, never really fully written it. I have always thought I would need to do an whole lot of researc because it would be historical fiction. I would at least need to make sure the time frame that the book takes place in is accurate. I think I can turn this book into something amazing actually. Hopefully, I can get my ideas down in time. I was considering is if I should make it apart of a blog, or should I actually publish an paper book?

Harambe.... and my thoughts on it

I wanted express my feelings regarding this Gorilla Harambe being shot. I know that people are more than tired of hearing about this. There are a lot more important things in this world that had happen that did not get any attention. Now, I am a big animal lover and I would choose animals over people anyday!

One of the reasons why I feel the need to express myself on this topic, Is because I actually stated, that he looked as if he was trying to protect the child. Now, I watched many videos and read many different opinions on the topic, but come to find out few days later those videos were actually edited. Do you know how stupid I feel saying, " It looks like he was protecting the child? " Pretty damn stupid!

I know some stuff about Gorilla's but never personally had the honor to work with them. I am not an zoologist or an expert! The two things that I could tell from the "edited" videos that he was in an threating pasture. In the video's he kept looking upwards, I figured he was directing this posture towards the screaming crowd. I also saw him shield the child, which can be a good and bad thing. They been known to be very gentle and very intelligent. They aren't called gentle giants for no reason. I also know that zoo keepers always keep an barrier between them and the Gorillaz because males can be very aggressive. The idea of him protecting the child was an good thought because I did not see him aggressively grab the boy. I know that these amazing animals have strength of scary proportions. If he seriously wanted to "kill" or direct his anger towards the child. He would have killed him straight away. In the "edited" video It looked like a curious child and an Massive Gorilla trying to figures things out together. The one thing about the video made me wonder about it being edited or not was the fact it did not show the gorilla going from one place to another. This is why I really did not make an comment.

With that said! I saw the non edited video. I feel bad that the boy went through something that dramatic at a young age. I also do not really blame the parents for neglect. Things can happen quicker than a person can respond to. Any parent can relate to turning their back for one second and something goes wrong. The child should not have been able to get to the point of falling. That is totally the zoo's fault. There has been many records of children falling into gorilla pits or climbing over fences to get a better look. I actually wanted to climb into enclosure when I was younger, I mean who wouldn't? As a child everything is friendly and loving. Children are taught that these animals are friendly and cute cuddly. They aren't properly taught the dangers that are really involved along with the need to respect them.

Now, It is sad that this animal has been shot. We are trying to protect them and not kill them. The zoo was in the right because if they did not take this course of action. The boy might not be alive today. The risk for the zoo and the boy was to high for them to weigh the options. If they try to tranquilize him than it would have been a waiting game and anything could have happened to the boy in that time. He could have gotten angry because he was shot and took his anger out on the child. Than people would be like WHY DIDN'T they just shoot the him?? Than again we do not know, they might have fell asleep together, right? *rolls eyes*

In the video the way the boy was dragged. I would have been terrified for that child. That was a full on display threat to the crowd. They are known to drag tree logs to prove a point. Even though at one point the gorilla wasn't sure about the boy. People have a tendency to forget that wild animals are not always the most forgiving. In the wild they have been observed to deliberately kill babies - especially in mountain gorillas. Usually this is the case after a female finds another male together with her baby or if a new leading male takes over. This is usually called infanticide, is meant to shorten the time until the the female becomes fertile again and the new male can have his own offspring with her. He could have found this child as a threat to his position. I know one point in the video where you could not clearly see the Gorilla anymore. You can clearly hear someone say, " OMG, he is drowning the child. ". That moment as a mother I would have killed him myself. I would have probably jumped in my damn self and took the gorilla on. Even though I would have probably died trying.

Anyway! The point is that the zoo was right for taking the action they did, though they need to make sure this doesn't happen again! The boy is with their family and the lost of a great amazing creature is sad! We as a human race needs to realize how important is to teach our children that these animals need respect.

Enough said! I stated my opinion!

Topics....no Idea!

I never have an topic for what I am going to write! If I feel like writing a blog, I just do! I been thinking of keeping up more often with my blog. I just seem to have that type of personality that just doesn't stick with one thing for long periods of time. That is the main reason why there are so many gaps in my blogs with periods of times where I do not write. I know there are a  lot of people that passionately post their ideas. For me, It is just something I do now and then!

I keep seeing ads on the internet about serious bloggers that make money off blogging. I know it can be done and I am not really the type to write a blog just for others. I personally write them for myself actually. Though, I usually consider my readers. Even though according to the stats on blogger I currently do not have any subscribers! I do not write a blog for that reason. Though, I remember back in the day when I had Livejournal and posted on there several times a day.  Never made any money off that shit! I also use to have a youtube channel but choose to delete the videos when I felt I was putting myself too much out there. 

I am not really one for attention. I am typically the person that enjoys sitting back and watching everyone else. Plus, I usually do not make that many videos these days because there is so much technology out there and people that are trying to actually become popular. I am not trying to plus even if I did become popular I wouldn't know what to keep on about. There are people that write blogs and video blogs about particular topics. I usually just go on about what is currently going on in my head at that moment. They go on about current events or something on the left feild of things....

I once had someone read my blog to give me an idea of where I could go with it. They basically criticized me for all my ideas, grammar, and flow of things. I agree! My grammar sucks and never really been serious about fixing it. I need to though! Even though, in college a lot of my English teachers said I had good writing skills and writing could take me far in life. The only issue I would have to fix was my grammar. Grammar has never been my friend and it sometimes causes more hassle for me than I would like to admit. I was told when I was younger that I had an learning disorder but, I do not want to cling on the fact of this. It does take me a bit longer to process certain things. I just never allowed this to stop me. A lot of it has to do with me being lazy. Yes, I admitted it! I am too lazy to give a shit about my grammar. Truth be told, I am more capable of fixing my grammar than I give myself credit for.  Yes, I am a college student and yes my grammar sucks! Deal with it! lol 

Maybe I should read more.....

I was thinking I should read more than I do. I use to read a lot actually, but latetly it seems I want to do everything else but that. Like right now, I am writing this journal and not reading an damn book. I think there neds to be more hours in a day...than just maybe i can put my head in an good book.

There is so many things that need to be done....I should really not wait until the last minute to do them. How do people learn to be so involved with life? I feel soicity trys to tell us that we are required to have a certain level of a soical like and you should partisate in an certain activetiy based on our soicial staus. Fucked up right? I oncehad this thought that maybe I should drink more wine because that is what normal people did, right? Went home and had an glass of wine after dinner? lol fuck that.... Maybe I am considered to be lower class, but I know how to act like an civialized person and not some robot drone that is controlled by what Socitiy says....

How the hell did this journal turn from wanting to read more to what soicity says??? wtf

Good night....

Plans for life.....

What do I want from life? The truth is that I do not know myself. I have many ideas of what maybe I should expect out of life, but in reality they are not what I truely want out of life. I have certian expetations I believe everyone does at one point. Currently, I have plans of going to India by the end of this year. I really am start to realize I can not live moment from moment with out having any sort of plan. I am going to go back to college and finish up some classes. I wont be graduating until 2018 or 2019 but at least I will have my BAS in computer science with an minor in Anthropology. My big dream is to be an Cultural anthropologist. This will let me do what I truely want. I want to travel the world and meet new people!!! Anyways, when I come back from india I am going to work hard towards school and getting my live straight. I need to work getting out of debet and getting somewhere where I can be comfortable. This is my plans for my future.

any suggestions?