Sleeping....awake...

Ever since I was told to choose between my college or my job, I have been with out work since. I was hoping that it was a good thing, which I still feel it is. I believe every time a door shuts another one opens. Even though It just takes a while to find the open door.

Well, ever since then I have had erratic sleeping habits. Let me just let you know that I have basically been like this my whole life. It doesn't matter if I gotten up at 6AM, I will end up sleeping close to 2 or 3 AM. It drives me nuts actually, even though everyone assumes I enjoy it. The only purpose I have for staying up so late, is that I feel calmer and feel more relaxed at night, even though I am relaxed my brain is going 100mph. It usually helps me get homework done, or something I have been putting off for a LONG time.  Usually if I try my best to go to sleep, I will end up staying awake in bed until 3 or 4AM, since I have been through TRYING to sleep a million and one times. I figured its more of a waste of time, so I prefer to actually get things done. In the long run the action of doing something helps my brain to amp down, which allows me to actually fall asleep.

I know that most people today experience this on more then one occasion within their life time. Though, it seemed when I had a J.O.B. I was more inclined to actually fall asleep because my timings were more structured, I had stuff done at certain times, I started settling down earlier, depending on my work times. Though usually when I knew I didn't have to work until evenings and could sleep until 5PM I would be up until 3AM.

Now, Its just sleeping... awake! Doing homework when ever I feel inclined to do so, because I will defiantly pull an ALL nighter to make sure everything is turned in perfect.

I keep wondering if I still had my Job would I still make good grades, because I know my work load in my classes are going to increase because we are packing in 8 weeks of stuff in 5 weeks, which in the long runs mean that we are SHORT on time. Maybe, this is all for the best. maybe because I am so close to the finish line that I needed this.... YES! that is what it is!!
Anyways.... Blah blah blah.... I will shut up now, I just needed a quick break from my homework. Maybe I will keep this journal up, just for my personal enjoyment.

Bye bye
Danielle